I knew you were gone but I waited for you. In a haze of disbelief and shock I waited for you to walk up to me. Minutes and hours ticked over with family and friends moving about around me. Deepened looks of sorrow and pity shadowing their faces. But then it was as though I … More The Day You Died
As much as I try to escape it, that day has been on replay in my mind for the past few weeks. The lead up to the one year mark of the day life changed. Terrified at the thought of what emotions this day will bring me. Angry that this day has a place in … More 357 Days of a Widows Grief
“You don’t talk to anyone, you’re distracted. The general feeling toward you is that you’re cold and unapproachable” … More Faces Of Grief
There are times in life that it rains and it pours, storm clouds roll in and it feels as though they are here to stay. However, we weather it out and sunlight inevitably breaks through the dark clouds. Hold on for its light. … More Let The Sunshine In
There are days that we crumble no matter how sturdy our walls may look. Days that we do not possess the strength and fight to make it through alone. Days where we need someone to draw our sword for us and fight the battle with us. … More Today I am Not Ok,
His smell I only now know, as being similar to the bottle of cologne that sits in my drawer. His scent no longer lingers on the items he once wore. … More Forgetting The Unforgettable,
I’m sorry you ever had to hear the words “he’s gone”. I’m sorry for those words that bought you to scream, the words that bought you to your knees, … More I’m Sorry You Lost Him,
Hope is believing that there is always light ahead despite the darkness that surrounds you. Hope is having faith and trust in the unknown. Hope is the voice in your ear that whispers give it another shot, pick yourself up and keep going. If you live without hope you’re not really living at all. So … More To My Future Self,
Being winter it was freezing but we rested in each other’s embrace sharing body warmth and looking up at the stars above. For hours we laughed and reminisced on our teenage years together, telling stories and confessing thoughts… … More A Walk Down Memory Lane
Upon opening my eyes in the morning I am given less than a minute but more than a second of peace from reality. Where is he, I wake wondering before my mind quickly catches up. … More The New Normal @187 Days
Fierce Widow 