Fierce Widow

My tears fall heavily and silently while writing you a letter that your eyes will never read.

I need you. Please come back.

At times I am filled with fear, I wish you were here to hold my hand. To tell me that the dark is nothing to be afraid of, and that the sun rise is never far away. I wish you were here to put a smile on my face and laugh with me on joyous occasions.

I wish you were here to love me the way you always did. The way no one else has loved me, wildly and unconditionally, with passion and without fear.

I wish to be in your presence again—loyal, real, loving and compassionate. I need your reminders when I forget the strength and courage you gave me.

I wish for your embrace when I’m lonely, and our bodies intertwined sharing butterfly kisses and tales of our years that always made us laugh.

I wish you were here for the big things, the little things and everything in between. I don’t want to face them alone.

I wish there was something I could have done so that you would still be here. I want so much to go back and rewrite the stars, erase the cause of this pain and heartache, to change fate.

I’ve always been one to accept the shifts of life as they come, but life without you, why?

Please come back.

Come back so I can rewrite our histories, I’d never leave your side. Id hold you close forever and the heartache of your absence I would not know till our golden years.

Come back and mend my heart with your sweet kiss, make me forget that it was ever broken.

Please.

We had so much life to live, so many stories to laugh at, so many moments left to share and memories yet to make.

I wish I could tease you, shower you with sweet sarcasm that always made you smile. I wish to see your smile again. I wish we could look back on this as just a nightmare. I wish to go back to the beginning and never meet the end.

I wish to wake up now.